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thanks didie,

sbab tumpangkan kreta suzuki swift yg ala2 taylor swift ntok bawa kami jalan2.

sbab tumpangkan kami di condo didie.

sbab ajak kami swimming di swimming pool di condo didie.

thanks yan,

sebab ajak aku clebrate bfday ko ngan sedah.

sebab teman aku jln2 (walaupon kjap)

sebab ajar aku swimming sketika.

thanks sedah,

sebab kau pon ajak clebrate bfday ko ngan yan.

sebab perangai gile2 kau tu la mmaksa kami turut serta.

sebab bsemangat walopn ape jua.

thanks seha,

sebab dok seblah aku dlm cinema. (walopn ko agak tak bnyawe tika itu)

sebab jd pneman setia ke mane2. (sape2 pon, dye ske teman. kekeke)

sebab tolong bwk brg dak2 ni separoh.

thanks all! aku ske hang out ngan korang. ;) wink!

and not to forget, thanks bak n umi fer the dvd player!

skang aku da bole tgok mcm2 cite kat dlm bilik sndiri. :D

i'm shocked.

sila anda renungkan.

- stok makanan yg diberi oleh parent tersayang

- sabun buku yg wangi

- berus yg ade corak2 katun

- chocolate yg yummy2

- stokin yg kiut miut ala2 sox world

- kasut yg bersulamkan warna warni (tak kira mnyerlah atau tak mnyerlah)

- koleksi baju yg comel2 dn lip lap2 gitu

- koleksi shawl

- koleksi spender kaler2 (mungkin di mase depan kot)

AKAN DIRAMPAS DAN DI'COMPOUND'.

heeesh. it is sooo unlogical.

seriously, berbaloikah semua di'compound' dgn harge rm50 ?

argue for or against it.

i was wrong.

been wondering.

all of this time, i thought by sitting in front of the class, focus and act innocent might avoid people saying things behind my back.

but i was totally WRONG.

i just found out, one of my male classmates says that i was a totally nerd.

and i'm like, what the hell ?

just because i'm wearing spectacles and silently listening to lectures in front of the class, you can easily tagged me as nerd. '

man, i can't believe they were tagging me that way.

believe me, they didn't know the other side of me.

it is natural fer me to be silent in class. coz fer me, learning and playing is 2 different things.

i know, some genius out there are like monkeys in the class but receiving superb results for finals.

but i can't get a superb result for being monkey in the class. that's why i act like a human, which misunderstood by others as nerd.

naah. it depends on how u look at it.

call me a nerd or skema or teacher's pet or any crap u thinking

aku tak heran pon. ;p

but please, don't judge a book by it's cover.

don't be narrow minded.

awkward.

it's just awkward.

just now, i just found my oooooold crush profile on fb.

it's been like a decades i didn't know about him (and i even didn't bother to know anything about him eventhough sometime i might wondering bout him.)

maybe i just did a craziest thing in my life. yeah, I've add him, and he approved it.

without wait any further, i view all of his photos.

SERIOUSLY! his face not change at all.

suddenly i remembered how i was like having a huge crush on him back those years. how i was act foolishly in front of him, and i even sneak secretly for his phone number and excitedly memorize it over and over. (tetibe trase aku mcm stalker ?)

this dirty little secret were succesfully sniffed by my classmates. (luckily he don't)

and how i was trying to forget him, and get over it.

because i know, if he knew, he maybe would just do nothing or maybe he didn't know that i exist.

but well, it was when i'm still 'budak hingusan' . i kept it just a cute old memory for being a 'skema' kid back then.

right now, he studying pilot. by looking at his pictures, i know he enjoying his life.

all the best then my fren. :)

(like that he care. haha)

well, its just awkward for reunion-ing with your old-crush.

hmm. i'm wondering that 'is he recognizes me?'

(if my bf read this, he might blown me up. hahaha. hopes not)

toodles~

nothing big.

kekadang aku pelik.

aku pelik knape ade yg tak reti bsyukur.

aku pelik knape ade yg gile desperado.

aku pelik knape ade yg mental disodero.

tetibe je aku wat tercets yg penoh dgn rhymes.

-___-"

well, aku da letih.

dgn never ending assignment.

dgn never ending observation.

dgn never ending frustration.

again, i invented tercet full with rhymes (?)

and suddenly i felt homesick. -__-

i need fresh air. i need my comfy pillow to hug. i want to play my cat, gemok.

i want to eat umi's cooking. i want to watch tv. i miss bak. i miss my comic books. i miss my drawings. i miss my home.

eventhough umah aku dekat tahap ape.

ye, aku tau. jgn mnggelabah sgt sebab umah aku dekat.

but i dunno. suddenly i felt like this.

all i need is space.

i need someone to understand me and hear everything what i want to say not want me to understand and hear what they want to say.

i need someone to rely on not someone to rely on me.

i need someone to comfort me not me to comfort someone.

i'm tired to act cool but actually i'm really disturbed inside.

wake up in 2010.

gdbye 2009, hello 2010.

smalam aku tak tggu countdown pon.

well, i'm kindda having a headache so kne tido awal. yeah, pkol 10 aku da slamat ke alam mimpi. -_-"

azam?

i want to be dean's list. (walaupon aku rase sgt mustahil.)

but insya-Allah. that's my goal this year.

so happy 2010 guys.

:)