again, random post.

i know, it's not logic.
but sometime,
i want people able to understand what i feel.
able to understand the state i'm in.
able to read what i'm thinking.

able to sit beside me when i'm lonely.

yes, i'm having a tough month.
with the assignments, meetings, commitments, and not to forget, problems.

i know, it is only a test.
a test to test whether i'm strong enough to face it.
yes, i know, there a lots of people that are more suffering than me.
alhamdulillah, i appreciate all of this. i do.

but, just this one time,
can you let me control my tears.
because lately, my tears seem like to came out whenever it likes.

ya Allah, please grant me patience in order to win this mission.

arghh!

at first i want to post something funny,
but there is something stopped me for doing that, my mood.

it hurts.
i know it's not a big deal. but, i can't stop feeling the pain.
it's like being left alone.
i know it is emergency case. but, i still can't stop feeling the pain.

i don't want to act noble here.
because i do mistakes sometimes. but when you are facing the mistakes that being done by someone else,


okaaayyy sumpah bengang gileeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
saba je la ngan korang ye. -_-"
sepak2 laju2 nak ?

haishh, i'm punk'd.

typical teenager ?

wow, germany kicked the englands out! 0.0
*bajet ahh, nk show off kononye dye pon tgok smalam*
hahaha.

well, to tell you the truth, last night after bak send me to uia, i put all the stuff at my bed, and take only my  hp notebook n my shorts to put in my handbag.
then, i rushed to in front of library to meet my frens up and went to didie's condo. and tgok bola la kan? huhu
yeah, i'm typing at didie's right now. ad after this we're going back to uia. :)
*sorry umi, your daughter are really naughty indeed, you know how teenagers nowadays*
hahaha.

don't worry, it's not like i'm skipping class or taking drugs or alcohol or something. (nau'zubillahiminzaliq)
i'm still the nerdy specky girl who sits in front of the class. :D
eventhough i'm look like a nerd doesn't mean i am. seriously okay.
hahaha.

ouh my, pity gemuk, all the kittens died!! semua dh gebu2, tp well takde rezeki org ckp kan.
and my aunt said that gemuk tgh meroyan kot ?
that is why she is taking no attention towards her kittens. ouh gemuk, whatever you do, we still love you. :)
even bak ade ckp, gemuk hampir2 pergi sbab ank dye tsangkut time dye branak, ya Allah hanya tuhan yg tahu btapa bsyukurnye aku time bak tdetik hati nk tgok gemuk time tu and selamatkn dye. alhamdulillah, terima kasih tuhan.
lambat sikit might change everything. scary right ?
hmm.

aku nk minggu ni cepat2 habis.
*cause there will no more works for agm or society or whatsoever, the newbies will take care of it after this*
huuu. doki. doki.

yipee ?

it's been a long time!
bru smalam aku trasa enjoy tgok movie gile2.
haha. thanks for hang out guys! ;) wink!

this week, jue n amee ikut ak balek umah.
and plan to sleep at pj, failed. -_-"
because aku kne sambut hp mini ku yg tsayang. haha. so, nk tak nk aku kne balek umah, jd aku kaut dua org dtg umah aku. habes citeee.

hehe. bajet nk blaja. tp paham2 je la kan kalo kwn. mmg jd sesi lain ahhh.
*siap tlg ak mandikan gemuk lagi. ;)
hoho

so yesterday,
like i've planned with haziq n kuchai, went to mid valley (yeah, again. -_-)

nek tren, smpai dlm pkul 10 lbih.
jumpe 2 teruna. lpas tu kami pon jalan2 la.

at first we attacked mph. *hoping to find the book about history of toilets..*
but i can't managed to find it. sigh~

then, since the guys were hungry, we went for mcD.
borak2. smpai mati akal bberapa kali. haha. but well ak rindu kot nk lepak mcm tu. hoho.
*tringat ta'aruf week tiba2*

ok, lpas tu tgok movie. sumpah ak suka gilaaa!
toy story 3. auwwww! cute gileee! haha.
i like mr. potato!! :D
well, aku ngna kuchai dh gelak mcm org gile, meanwhile jue n haziq gelak kjap sbab drang pening ?
no comment.

dh habes movie, solat dulu. then pi melilau mcm tade motif. haha.
first nk men boling disko tu. tp packed gilee. last, men kat game arcade tu. O_O
layan je la kann. haha.

lpas tu lg skali mcm tade motif.

then we decided, nk mkn kat pizza hut. (kuchai lyn subway)

aku borak2 punye borak tgok 6:30 dh.

sepatutnye aku dh smapi rumah pd waktu tu. but hey, i'm still laugh my hearts out at mid valley!
aku dh cuak dh. how i'm going to facing umi nnt. D:

punye la aku kjar tren lpas solat asar. tpaksa la nek trip 7:30 punye tren. so smpai pkul 8:00 ahh.
hanya tuhan yg tau btapa nervous nye aku nk balek umah.
you see, umi is like triple the great, mandat gile besar. kalo skali hukum mmg vain.
style kan umi aku ? haha.

ehem, ok. skali rupanya mak cik aku ade kat rumah. jd dye takde chan la nk marah2! hahaha.
sbab ad org. and she is in a good mood! ahhh. i love her. :D

long story short, it was the day of the year. :)
thanks, julia, amiradiha, adib, haziq, n kuchai. syg korangg. hoho.

*kuchai, kalo ko ajk ice skating lpas ni mmg aku dok tepi je. aku tak reti!! -_-" haha.

?

my body temperature kindda cool down a bit.
*cough.cough* -_-"

finally! i already got the topic for my oral com! alhamdulillah.

hmm. actually i want to write a lot of things.. but i don't know how to put it into words.
it is kindda serabut. maybe i'm in the state of verbose ? haha.

whatever.

...

don't be a NoTa okay.

No action, Talk only.

cehh, mntang2 lpas dgar talk dr bro Amin Idris la kaaaan!! haha.
okay he is soo cute, but like miss hanita said, 'he's married, darn!'
haha! sgt brtuah isteri beliau dn ank  beliau. :)

teeet, tukar topik. (tak elok kacau laki org)
ngahaha.

Alhamdulillah, about taekwondo n ben socs agm thingy kindda settle down a bit. phew~

but then, i still not yet decided what i'm going to present for oral com. T.T
*still in the state of darkness*

ouh yeaaah! gemuk safely delivered 2 beautiful gevu gevi comel lote kittens. :D
i love u lah gemokk! tahniah. tahniah.
terima kasih tuhan, alhamdulillah. :)
*i'm still wondering that she going to deliver more kittens tomorrow ? : l

ouuuh, and i had a very nice time just now!
thanks guys! suke hang out ngan korang. :D
thanks again, didie, sedah, biyan n nazrin.

and lately, aku asyik tserempak ngan junior2 econs aku. hahaha. sgt comel masing2. :D
*all the best for all nominations yeaah, first year! :)

i think aku da sgt tsimpang jauh dr title aku. O_O
hahahaha. ok, fullstop!


p/s : having a crush on someone is not a crime kan ?

 

fuhh.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! 

ouh, i would like to scream like that right now. *prefer at someone's face*

(but then people will think i'm crazy. -_-") HAHA

haha. ok sgt penat.

taekwondo - naseb la aku tak in charge gile2, mmg aku nk serahkn pd yg lain. mmg sorry giler. sbab aku ade byk bnda nk kasi komitmen. -_-

ben - ni mmg jodoh, kne in charge sbgai pc. so, bye taekwondo. i'm so sorry. 

seriously, penat travelling ak dr kmpung pon tak fully charged lagi. 

(wooot, ferst time blek kpg nek bass! woooooooooooot)

haha. dn budak2 ni sgt la comel okaay. dn dh tak trlayan aku. -_-"

lpas knduri pon aku men hentam tido di ruang tamu sbab aku da tlampau penaat. 

tp malam tu aku saket perut tcirit2. ahhhhhhhh! tak puas tido jugak. -_____-

esoknye aku balek rumah, then malam tu aku gedik2 marathon anime 'gakuen alice' 

tp sgt sia2 aku marathon sbab tak sma lansung sgn mangga dyaaaaaaaaaaa! aku frusttttt! 

-tdo pkul 2 kot.- 

dh la kne balek awl sbab ade meeting bagaai. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! 

ok dh takde mood. -_-

once in a month.

pms.
mmg kasi aku serabot. haha.

girls, u understand what i'm trying to say right ? good. :)

seriously, don't ever gatal2 cari pasal during 'once a month' aku ni.
because i'll like really really really get annoyed easily. plus, u can detect the bad aura around me.
(even my frens discovered i'll be like that during my pms)

but, sometimes, i'll like energetic. i just can't stop myself from moving here and there.
(kekadang aku rasa mcm nk dancing sana sini je. : l )

and the best part, i can go hang out one whole day without worrying anything. :)

you see, i don't like to perform my solat in the state of chaos.
like people are standing behind you waiting for telekung's turn or place.
like people are soo crowded because surau is soo small.
and smelly telekung (yg dh tak basoh bapa tahun.-_-)

if you ask me, i prefer my home of course!
but then, klcc's surau gonna be my favourite. because the surau is big and even the telekung smells nice. :D
sogo ? bolehlah, bru expand kan.
jusco ? depends jusco mana la. stakat ni seremban 2 quite okaay.
mid valley ? vain gile. -_-
time square ? triple vain.
R&R pon depends kat mana.

jauhnya aku melencong. O_O

unexpected.

well, siapa sangka aku akn langkah kanan hari ni ?
i am a very fortunate person indeed! :D
-alhamdulillah-

at first, yan and me were planning to hang out together today, but then she canceled it since she just woke up on 9:30 in the morning meanwhile i'm all ready for today.
so, i decided to go alone and treat myself after facing a rough week with shopping and maybe a little window shopping would help relax me a bit. :)
and i lied to bak n umi that i go to mid valley with my fren but actually i'm off alone.
(ceh ayat mcm org mmbawa hati yg lara je kan. haha)

but but but!
all my plan changed when i step at ktm.
there i met my econs juniors (there are 9 of them, boys.)
you see, being a committee during ta'aruf week (especially publicity and protocol) did make me famous. haha.
and, these juniors are among the student that i've been conducted before (they are so naughty. haha!)

maybe they sympathized with the state i'm in (alone), so they asked me to hang out together. 0.0
seriously, i never thought that this thing will happen.
and being the only girl surrounded by 9 boys (eventhough they're my juniors but they look so matured)
sangat segan okaaay! hahaha! XD

aku pn layan je la. since aku sensorang kan. jadi aku pikir, just have a go then.

sangat prihatin. haha. i love them, they are soo nice (and naughty at the same time) haha
and one of my junior's girlfriend treated us for lunch, because it was hr birthday and her mom let her treated all of her frens today, yes, including me! haha. (secret recipe kot.)
ouhh my ouuh my, what a haul what a haul!! XD

after lunch, we heading off for cinema, first2 nk tgok karate kid but then semua full, layan
lagenda budak setan. -_-
cerita yg sepatutnya sedih tp jadi sgt lawak bg kami. HAHAHA!
at least i'm having fun today!, thanks guys! you guys are so sweet! :D

here some pictures that i take,

 

naim and his girlfren, farah. :)

 

wiki n maulana. :)

wiki n maulana lagi :D (haha, gmba tak jadi)

ha, ni junior ben dn gf beliau (sudah lupa nama, haha! (: )

huu, bole hangout lg. :D

-no comment-

well, 

this week kindda tough i guess. 

being single again really really do make a big changes for my daily routine. 

(at least, i'm not stupid enough to kill my self due to frustration being dumped)

alhamdulillah. 

bak kate kwn aku, kumbang bukan sekuntum. 

sekarang ni biar kumbang cari aku. biar ak jadi bunga yg statik. aku malas nk gerak2 lg dah.

haha. 

i accept it as a challenge folks! life is not like rainbow and sunshines - HS 

haha. 

okay. stop that, 

tukar topik. 

haish, pagi tadi penat ak dtg kelas, but class got cancelled. haiyaa! -_-

gemuk dah tak nak men langgar2 ngan aku td. merajukkah ? T.T 

aku, umi dn bak bersama-sama cat dinding pagar. cool! :)

 

dgn selambanye ak tadi pgi mcD dgn selua tdo. hahaha! XD

huu. -_-

jiran katil tagged. ;) wink!

haha.
walaupun kami kurang bcakap but then minah ni sgt pndai detect facebook dn blog aku. :D

Tag.

1. what are you craving now?

nando's ? :D 

didie yg ajar. haha

2. where is the place that you want to go most?

aku nak universal studio. so that i can scream my heart out. :D

3. if you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?

i want to be succesful in dunia and in akhirat. :)

amin~

4. which type of person do you hate the most?

backstabbers

5. do you believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain? 

yeah i do! 

6. what do you see yourself as 20years ahead?

a sucessful person! insya-Allah. :)

7. find words to describe the person who tagged you

purple lover. :D

8. taggie

-ady! 

-anys!

-amilin! 

:D 

Award.

adakah anda happy skang ?

boleh la.

kenapa anda happy ?

sebab bru lepas cat dng bak n umi. best. :)

apakah benda yg boleh buatkan anda happy ?

hangout with my frens. :)

pernahkah anda menerima tag?

banyak juga lahh. :D

nyatakan warna yg anda suka?

rainbow ?

        tulis sesuatu tentang orang yg anda tag. tulis berjela pon xper.

gadis comel mrupakan jiran katil seblah. haha. XD

adakah anda happy dengan apa yang anda ada skang?

it's more than enough. alhamdulillah. :)

thanks nesyak! ;) wink!!

that easy ?

'lepas ni kita dah tak ada apa-apa'

am i that easy for you ?
don't get me wrong. i still can live without you.

but at least explain to me why.
at least get me understand.
at least make me forget what we've been through.
at least i have the reasons to get over you.
at least i have the reasons to hate you.

and please, i'm not going to regret anything, because everything happens for a reason.

haha

to think back why i like my lecturers, is because they are so damn good! hahaha! XD

my 3rd sem.

'ok' is the exact word to describe the beginning of my 3rd sem, cool. :D
haha.

alhamdulillah, all my lecturers are cool. so i don't have to worry about being boring in the class.
(even mdm shamimah seem energetic this sem! :D )
what a positive start.

plus, they chose me as their drama n hs clas rep. -_-
nmpaknya keje potostat2 ni dtg balek le. hahahaha!
speaking about potostat, td pakcik potostat sgt peramah!! sume start ak tnye pasal wallpaper computer beliau, gamba kucing. sangat comelll! ahhh! miss gemuk. :'(

since my dormmate bring along her car, i'm like having lunch or dinner outside. :D thanks didie lav yaa!
no to forget, seha, sedah n nazrin. u guys cool ;) wink!

sem ni mcm aku tak dok diam je. da la blok A. hahaha.

ouh yaa, i have to balek kampung this 18. by bus. yes, BUS.
first time ok aku balek naik bas ke jementah. -_-"
but then i accept it as a challenge! yeaaaaaaaaah!!

see, this post is so merepek. bahasa semua tunggang langgang!!
(please excuse my language.)

ok, drama. drama! huu. homework. -___-


p/s : yannn! mane kau ? tak nmpak2 lg.
 -______________________-

dilemma

have you ever caught in the situation that you have to choose one, between the two things you love the most ?

like ice cream for example, vanilla or chocolate ?

i loved both, but i have to choose one. only one.

ya Allah. please help me.

boring

huhu, relieved!

but then, tetiba aku rase boring di rumah ?
being the only child in the family kindda lonely sometimes. that is why, i like to chat with gemok(cat). HAHA.
and and another fact being the only child is that,

your father will treat you like a boy.  (..)
your mother will treat you like a girl. (duhh, cause i'm a girl.)
this clearly shows when they want to buy me shoes.

father - 

-mother














get it ? hahaha.
(kekadang aku trasa ade 2 personaliti)

alhamdulillah aku tak de la konpius ngan identiti sndiri. (na'uzubillahi min zaliq)

and because of being the only child, sometimes i like to be alone. maybe i'm more comfortable that way.
you see, i like to meet new friends. i do. i really do. but i'm just not a 24/7 available type.
i'm appreciate who like to stay at by my side. but forgive me if i'm not always at by your side. i'm so sorry.
some may think i'm selfish, but being alone for 19 years.. well u can get the picture kan ?
i do have friends!! very lovely friend for a friend!
again, i'm not a 24/7 available type. because i just don't know how to.

(even with my own boyfriend i'm all like this.haha. sorry ya!)

and, being the only child, doesn't mean u can get everything you want. that is soo not true.
my parents trained me not to be a spoiled-brat (alhamdulillah)
i even wash my own bathroom ok ?
(btapa garangnya umi aku. hahaha! yes no house maid)
so please, bila dengar ank sorang je jgn ckp 'mesti dpt semua yang kite nak kan ?'
maybe ada, but not me. haha. maybe dapat but depends on my academic performance.

tapi aku tak kisah sgt,
sbab ade lg yg susah dr aku. jd aku bsyukur ngan apa yang ada. thanks bak. thanks umi. i love you both! :D

really, i dunno why i pick this topic ?

it's not that bad.

everything happens for a reason.

you see,
how at first i was sgt berat hati to move to block A, but hey! it's not that bad after all..
the room sgt cool. (tolak ketepi tandas, no watercooler n ampaian) but then the room tak sepanas mcm dulu.
i can sleep peacefully! and the room kindda luas sikit. heh, just enough fer me.
plus, my room is on level 1! so, no need nk brhempas pulas angkat brg tggi2. haha.
alhamdulillah. :)
* no wonder my classmates sgt jelous when i got block A. haha. cheers!

and i have to resit this monday fer writing (EPT)
if i passed this, i'm not going to repeat again the whole thing. so pray fer me ok guys! :D
insya-Allah, i know this is the best for me. Amin. :)

and another fact that the first week is a total chaos (fiasco might be the exact word ?)
but hey again, i'm end up with cool classmates n lecturers! n good schedule too.
yeah, alhamdulillah. :)

so i want to give the best shot for my final semester! insya-Allah amin.
at least 3.++ above for a pointer. :)

thanks waniey! :D

jadi mari kita kenal dengan pemberi award ini

waniey:

1. dak al-amin! :D

2. pnah pi dubai !

3. pakai sk-II :D (maseh kah ?) haha

jadi mari kita teruskan dengan 7 wonderful things about me..hahaha

1.  talkactive ?

2. anime otaku ?

3. can cook. :D

4. straight to da point.

5. TG . haha! XD

6. plain n simple yet artistic ? idk.

7.  ...

Tugasan TAG : Award + Tagged
(a) Buat entri berterima kasih atas award yang diberikan.
(b) Berikan kepada 10 / 20 / 30 orang rakan blog korang.
(c) Beritahu kepada rakan - rakan korang bahawa mereka memenangi Award tersebut.
(d) Ceritakan 7 perkara mengenai diri sendiri.
Award Yang Akan Disampaikan

so, penerima seterusnyaa..jeng3...

*ak bhentikan di sini. :)

sleepy, but can't sleep.

being committed to work for 2 weeks straight non-stop makes me difficult to set my mind back to relax mode.
hoho.


i miss bersila at ax001
i miss pegang sepanduk
i miss bank muamalat counter
i miss ly 10
i miss the toilet signs
i miss the maps
i miss lecture hall A n B
i miss amf hall
i miss to hold the microphone
i miss being p.a
i miss studio 5
i miss their laugh n jokes
i miss their smile
i miss them
i miss pub n  pro

just 2 weeks, yes. 2 weeks is enough to make me misses all of them.
you see, even u got the hardest work ever, with ur fren stay by ur side, it doesn't matter.
like in '3 idiots'

-aal iz well.-