khas untuk maimunah.

oh my, look at the time passed!!

right now one of my frens are already married!!
wahh, i wonder how she felt.. being someone's wife at this age. oh my, what a challenge.
respect lah!
ingat lagi, dulu2 same kelas time form 1. kecik2 je maseng2. skarang dah kahwin. ya Allah, cepatnye mase.
hoho.

congratulations to maimunah and her husband.
may Allah bless the two of you in dunia and akhirah.

:)

that is why i love them. :)

me: umi umi, nak mkn papa roti takk ? wa blanja. :)
umi: ha, mestilah nak! nak 4.
bak: apelah miker ni mintak 4, wa! nak 6.
me: O_O

hmm..

*yawn* 

lately, i didn't enjoyed my sleep. i don't know why. it's like, hard to get in deep sleep. 

i like to sleep which i was soo into it. 

baru puas tido. hoho. 

maybe it takes time for a bit. hmm, maybe. 

Alhamdulillah, i just finished editting my script-writing. i'll give it to my group mates for final touch. 

I hope it will be a blast. insya-Allah. 

haha, nantikan play kami okaay. :)

today, I was enjoyed by the fact that I having lunch at secret recipe with my class mates.

It was fun, though. hahaha! 

jalan kaki okay. comel gilaa. XD 

thanks anys, wan sya, meilin n thirah. :)

hmm, esok nak bertapa kat library for computer's paper this saturday. -_-"

sleepy.. 

 

i'm funny heh ?

'salwa, sense of humor kau tggi gilaa'
haha, itulah kata2 kwn aku td.

sometimes, i really don't know why, why they laugh at me. -_-"
maybe 'kelaka' is in my blood.
you see, my dad also funny. my uncle also. and right now, i think one of my little cousin going to be one.
because he is really funny. hahaha

alhamdulillah, td demo speech went well.
like i expected, they laughed gila2.
mcm kwn aku kata, 'kau ckp je aku vibrate gila2' hahaha.
mdm komen, eye contact aku kurang. adehh, bnda tu aku buat tnpa disedari.
insya-Allah i'll improve my skills for upcoming speech, thanks a lot mdm. :)

hmm, lpas ni persuasive pulak.

yada yada yada..

nothing can beat the fluffiness of my pillow.
nothing can beat the deliciousness of my umi's dishes.
nothing can beat the warmness of my house.

to me my house is the precious one.

alhamdulillah, thank god that my house are very nearby. only 10 minutes from my campus. :D
(nilai la tapi, masuk gombak nnt gonna be 1 hour. -_-)
hoho ouh yeahhh! nothing can beat my cat, gemokkk! :D hahaha. i love her very3 much. ;)

to tell you the truth, i've been to many places.
from banglo to somewere in felda.
(trust me, walopon umah banglo, tapi tak satisfied me at all.. stakat ni laa..)
in the end, aku sndiri yg tak slesa. -_-"

that is why, when i'm feeling depressed or disturbed, i prefer going back home.
doesn't matter if i'm all alone, as long it is my home, i'll comfortable there.

and one more thing,
kalau sekali aku dh niat baik nk ajak, tapi kau orang pusing2 skjap ckp nak skjap ckp tak nak.
aku tau lah lpas ni aku prlu buat ape. lpas ni tak perlu dgar ajakn aku lg. tak payah aku sakit hati lg.
don't bother. better off going somewhere else.
i can be nice like an angel sometime, but when i'm bad.. u should think what you've done before.

nasihat dari aku ?
sila tetapkan pndirian masing2. jgn kejap nak kejap tak nak.
bukan nk ckp aku bajet gile poyo baik di sini, tapi sebabkn prangai macam tu, ramai yg saket hati, maybe aku je yg saket hati ? emosi ? mmg. sebab dh lame aku tahan.
entahlah, bak kate umi aku, 'berbaik pd org berpada-pada, tp jahat jgn sesekali'

and about air,
that is why la aku di rumah sbab uia nilai takde air. -_-"
tapi kan, aku dgar ade kes org main gune air org lain (yg dtadah dlm baldi la tapi)
ya Allah, pikir la sndiri, cube kau kat tmpat org yg tadah tu ? geram tak ?
msti la. dh la penat2 tadah tiba2 balek dh kosong. aphal kau tak boleh pikir betul2 ?
tapi kalau pasal org lain senang pulak kau komen bodoh bagai, kau sendiri ?
hmm. aku betul2 tak paham.

suddenly i realized, there are a lots of people selling fish around me.

it's obvious!

if bak, umi and gemuk still stay by my side,
so i don't give a damn about you.

chocolate attempt..

geez, i have to change my topic since my homemade milk chocolate didn't become one. -_-"
my umi said because i used too much butter, so it became like weird looking milk chocolate.
because, all the butter naik atas and bkumpul mnjadikn seolah2 mcm ade white chocolate brlapis dgn chocolate tsebut.. scary kannn ? haha. jadi aku kikis butter tu, then aku mix dgn biskut jacob yg dh dipecah, and put some nuts. and voila! a healthy kek batik, sugar-free!
i gave it to my lil cousin next door, they enjoyed it soo much!!
'kak wawa buat mcm sedap gileee, byk gile rase coklaaat!' hahaha.
*kembang sketika*

at least aku tak membazir dn membuang chocolate tsebut.
at least aku cri jugak alternatif ape nk buat dgn chocolate tsebut.
ceh bunyi gile poyo dn bajet kann ? haha. whatever.

as long i didn't do any crime.

haish, i wish that my milk chocolate did work. takpe, aku akn experiment lain kali. hoho.

home alone.

being left alone in the house is not something fun. 

thank god gemuk is here with me. -alhamdulillah.

(itupn kat luar rumah, bak n umi had me sworn that don't let gemuk in.) 

at least, she is staying guard outside right ? hahaha. 

according to my plan, at first i have to see someone tomorrow. 

what to do. tak ade rezeki kot. aku rase ade hikmahnye, so better stick with Allah's plan. He knows best. 

for some people, being left with an empty house was like getting a gold fall from the sky. 

ye la kan, boleh buat sesuka hati je. even kau orang nak buat party pon boleh ? 

but to me, being left with an empty house was like feeling empty. 

hm, ni baru sehari. nnt kalau aku dah dpt rumah aku sorang2, maknanya aku kne kahwin cepat2 supaya tak feeling empty ? ahahaha. 

i miss bak's jokes and umi's lectures. they are my rainbow and sunshine. (gemuk also. :D)

huhu. 

hmm, this is was my very first time being left alone while my parents away to jementah. 

sunyi.

farhanitrate and prerajulisation ?

wow.
that is all i can say.

to tell you the truth, i don't like watching hindustans. really.
i'm not in the club, but, i think i have to make an exception for the '3 idiots'.
okay maybe i am down-to-date a bit..but, it is the best movie i've ever seen. seriously.
(it makes me cried. *a lot!*)

watching 3 idiots also makes me remembered something.
ta'aruf week.

it all started when wan fitri introduced the movie to me.

'salwa, kau penah tgok '3 idiots' ?'
'tak penah dnga plak, bru ke?'
'baru la jgak, ha jum tgok.'

at first, sumpah aku ingat cite mat salleh mane la dye nk bg aku tgok. tapi, bile aku tgok style video je,
i knew, it was hindustan.
that time, i was like, duhh, me hindustan ? puhleaseeee.
hahaha. but then, these guys (hampir majoriti) all in the hindustan club.
trust me, even kuchai and haziq also in the club. -_-" so, what to do ? i take it as a challenge, and watch it with them (of course lah tgh break, tak curi tulang okayy)

ok, aku mengaku aku agk enjoy for the first 30 minutes. and agk kecewa bile cik assistant suh smbung keje.
hahaha. plan nk smbung mlm tu, tp wan tak bawak lappy tersebut. -_-"

but, thanks to you guys, i would never discovered such a beautiful movie. :)
-ceh, luahan student ben yg sdang blaja drama ?-
hahaha.

aal iz well.

haha

2 paper left.
can't wait to finish all the mid-term papers..

plus, by next week i have to settle
-the computer assignment.
-script writing.
-grammar assessment.
-oral com's outline.

and start my term paper on drama. huu. what a haul indeed. -_-"
(smpai aku tak nak balek rumah la minggu depan sbab nk siapkan semua ini)

didie punye jabulani comel okaay!
aku rindu gemuk. :'(

after grammar, drama. -_-

huu, finally i know what is the answer to the sensation feeling in my stomach.
diarrhea + period pain = totally killer stomachache!

i even lose my appetite. -__-
ouh my, my head starting to feel dizzy.
my umi once said that i experienced 'senggugut angin', which is more brutal than senggugut itself.
*boys, you can ignore it or just keep as your general knowledge.. who knows you future-wife-to-be might experiencing the same thing ? * haha.

beside stomachache, you will feel like 'mlayang-layang' mcm tak pijak tanah. sgt headache.
sakit belakang n pinggang jgn cakap la kann.
and emosi agak tak terkawal.
*so, guys, better watch out okay.* hahaaha!

gile merepek aku ckp pasal ni tiba2.

drama.drama.drama..

(:

my stomach still hurts..
(tak tau lah makan apa time kenduri. -_-)

huu, finally, i went to pj last night. :)
the committee appreciation dinner went well. alhamdulillah.
tapi ramai tak ada. jadi mcm tak best.

at first, i want to go with jue and surprised wan fatin there.
sadly, jue tak nak ikut.. and, wan fatin is not around. D:
touching okayy. hoho.
luckily i have my classmate teman me. kalau tak, aku mcm mati akal di sana.

kami brtolak dlm pkul 6. smpai dlm pkul 7, since wan fatin takde, aku tumpang bilik aisyah ntuk solat maghrib. then lpas tu, trus aku pi amf ntok register.
ouh yeah, the door gift was towel. (i got peach! :D)
then, dh masuk, keluar balek. bosan pulak duk lame2.

tserempak pulak kuchai n haziq.
borak2 mcm tu je. then start dh bdak2 ni ramai2 masuk.
then i noticed, hazmie, uncle, azhar, asytoff, wan syakirah, mia, izahidah, wani, maisarah, etc etc..
ouh ya, our head, and assistant head pon adaa. :)

dh masuk, speech bagai.
start la makan2.
aku da ckp awal2, kalo menu dye same time kenduri mmg aku tak mkn.
and, iya tekaan aku tepat. menu sama. so aku tak makan. aku minum je.
haha, this is the sweet part,
all the guys noticed that i didn't eat, (pub pro la of course)
dah semua tanya kenapa aku tak makan bagai.
aku nk explain jauh sgt. (duhh, duduk asing2 kan)
hahaha. kwn aku gedik sgt ckp aku diet. tak laaaa!
aku tgh tak selesa perut time tu. jadi mmg tak mampu nk makan apa2.
smpai si hazmie ni call soh explain, hahahaha! lawak la! but then thanks for concerning guys. :)
mmg best bkawan ngan korang ni. hehe.

multimedia presentation tak best sbb byk gamba brothers. gmba aku pon kne block! urgh. tak best tak best.
-_-"

hahaha. then last2 dapat sijil.
comel okay semua bkumpul dkat cl ntok amik sijil. :)
serious tempat tu pon gile kenangan. hoho.

dah amek gamba bgai, kami budak nilai ni tpaksa la balek. hoho.
and time tu aku mmg mnahan saket perut gila2.
at first aku ingat period pain. tapi diarrhea. -_-

wish me get well soon. dh tak sggup mnahan lg ni. huuuu.

kenduri~

my back hurts. -_-"

huu. alhamdulillah, the kenduri turned up well.
tapi ramai tak dtg. so lauk pn boleh tahan banyak lah lebih.
hmm, maybe i should bring some back fr my dormmates. hoho. :)
(the least that i can do for them)

kindda tiring. i am all out for today's kenduri.
dr pagi smpai malam ni aku berkhidmat.

pagi - laundry, breakfast, wash all the tables and chairs. (smpai kene pncut air oleh ayah okay, naseb aku mmg dh tgh kotor time tu, hahaha)

tgahari - aku kne tolong adik aku mnyiapkan kje kursus beliau. (tak smpai hati nk tggalkn sorang2, aku pn dok tlg)

petang - aku tlg goreng ayam 10 kg okay.

malam - angkat2, and kemas, cuci periuk belanga.

yang pasal ayam 10 kg tu, ni semua gara2 maid indon sementara bnyk demand.
try to imagine, at first the temporary indonesian maid will do all the job (goreng ayam, and potong2 buah la etc etc..)
but to my surprise, maid this days can be soo demanding!
ada ke, first dah la suruh ayah aku jemput mereka, then belum kerja lagi dah demand upah rm50 sejam.
dah demand nak balik awal, dah demand tak boleh keje banyak2.
amboi, mmg sikit punye cantik la muka kau kann. '
name pon orang gaji, kau kne la buat keje untuk dapat gaji kann?
ya Allah. mmg tak payah la tempah kau ni. aku buat sensorang lagi bagus.
elok je ayam 10 kg aku handle, alhamdulillah! (tp mcm sauna la kau hadap kuali tu 6 round kan)
ikutkan hati aku, kuali yg aku dok goreng ayam tadi mau aku tonyoh muka dikau untuk mncantikkan lagi muka kau yang banyak demand tu yaaa! grr.*geram*
ahaha, emosi sketikaa. okay full stop.

long story short, i'm exhausted.

:)

tommorow, i'll be having a kenduri sambut bulan puasa,
so, automatically, i have to merewang today. :)

with full enthusiasm, i helped my mom mnyiang bawang, halia, lengkuas, serai, and even kopek udang!
(fyi, i did the bawang separuh jalan because my mom asked me to stop since aku asyik kene lap air mata aku yg mngalir tak henti2. haha!)

even makcik2 jiran came for merewang.
(please note that my house area is in kampung so, merewang sebelum kenduri is kindda normal here.:D )
hoho.

thanks to them, semua bnda2 mnyiang sudah settle untuk hari. alhamdulillah. :)

tadi, when aku dok potong2 carrot n timun with umi, aku tnye random question..

me: umi, kenapa kn lelaki suke bnda2 cantik, nnt bile dye dh couple ngan org tu, bru dye mnyesal ?
umi: biasalah tu manusia, semua org sukakn bnda cantik. tp cantik tu sementara, ada kau tgok miss world tu cantik smpai mati ? tak kan ?
me: hehe, ye la. tapi2, wa tgok majority kwn2 wa suke nk tackle pompuan2 cantik. tp bile sedar, clash. beh tu cari bru, clash lagi. mcm takde motif je couple ni.
umi: itu sebab umi pesan, mngaji and solat jgn tinggal. ingat tuhan. insya-Allah tuhan tlg kau la. tak payah nk risau. jodoh tu keje tuhan. kite ni je jgn buat tak menentu. musibah tu snang je tuhan nk kasi. ingat pesan umi okay.
me:okay.

thanks umi. wa akn ingat pesanan umi.

dududd..

ringannyaa kepalaa! :D
alhamdulillah.

it's been a year that i didn't have any hair cut.
so, my hair was like very longg! haha
(at first, i want to kept my hair long, because i thought about being a perempuan melayu terakhir, and want to surprise my husband-to-be how feminine i was. hahaha! XD)
but then, i realized it is too early to prepare for a surprise ? haha.
so, i decided to enjoy my youth first. ;)

ouhh, nnt ade dinner kat uia pj! rindu sama mereka. :)

ok dh takde point nk blogging. -__-

fuwa fuwa~

*yawn*

kindda sleepy these past few days.
but at least i already hand the assignment to mdm, settled my informative speech, and did the cct paper.
phew, 5 more papers left. ganbarimasu! hoho.
insya-Allah amin. :)

again, i went to didie's last night.
lamenye dh tak swim! walopn skjap, tp ok la, puas la. haha.
one thing aku tak bpe minat overnight, nak tidur. susah btul ak nak tidur.
maybe sbab tak bpe selesa kot. -_-"
but well, janji bole la lelap kjap kann. hoho.

and i wondering to have a haircut this week.

err..

i think aku mcm emosi gile post sblum ni.

hahaha.
maybe nk dtg bulan kot ?

just ignore this post, really, just ignore it.

ya Allah.
kenapa kau mesti ungkit ?
kenapa kau tak explain awal2 ?
kenapa baru sekarang kau nak cari aku ?
kenapa baru sekarang kau nak pujuk aku ?

kenapa kau tak pikir time kau ckp kata putus dulu ?
kenapa kau tak pikir masak2 ?

kenapa kau buang aku dulu ?

aku kan dah cakap, aku tak pndang pun taraf kau, aku tak pndang pun rupa kau, sebab aku sndiri pun tak sempurna. aku sndiri pun sdang blajar. aku sndiri tgh mentah.
semua manusia tak sempurna!
tapi apa yg aku pndang ?
aku pndang agama.
aku pndang hati.
aku pndang budi bahasa.

supaya kau boleh bimbing aku pd mase depan nnt.
aku nak kite solat bjemaah sama2 hari2 setiap 5 waktu.
aku nak kau ajar ank2 kite ilmu agama, dn al-quran.
aku nak kau sama2 dgn aku smpai aku tua.

aku nk kite contohi mcm ibu bapa kite, walau mcm mana susah tetap bersama.
aku tak nak contohi mcm artis, kusut sikit dh goyah, snang berpecah.

kau bukan tak kenal aku,
setahun kan kau kenal aku..

bukan nk ckp kau je yang salah. maybe aku pon byk buat salah.
tapi kite hidup sbagai manusia, nmpak ksalahan kene tegur.
kan ade hadis mngatakan pasal tegur kalau nmpak kmungkaran, kan ?
mula2 dgn tangan, tak boleh jugak dgn lisan, tak boleh jugak dgn hati, itupn selemah2 iman.

tipu lah aku tak rindu kau.
aku rindu.
tipu lah aku tak sayang kau.
aku sayang.

tapi satu je aku nak kau paham,
kalaulah kau tak terlepas kata putus hari tu.
ini tak mungkin terjadi.

aku mungkin senang ditawan, tapi bila sekali kau buat aku macam tu, mmg susah, mmg gila susah kau nk tawan aku balik.
sebab aku tau, kalau kau betul sayang aku, kau takkn pikir nk kasi kata putus mcm tu.

ye, aku mentah lagi.
aku tak sempurna.
aku tak layak untuk ada siapa2 sekarang.

aku dah serik. harap kau paham.
ini bukan ego. ini tekad. ini muktamad.

aku tak mungkin undur balik.
aku nak maju ke hadapan.

untuk bercinta bukan masanya lagi bagi aku.

: l

mid term exam is around the corner! oh my god oh my god oh my god!
huuu..

fullmetal alchemist broterhood's ending really satisfied me. :)
rather than the normal version one, i prefer the brotherhood version more!!
i hope they even consider to continue the episodes.
what i love the most about FMAB is that, we can experienced unexpected twisted story line.
you see, i hate the fact that i can know what is going to happen next in the story (any movie or story or etc etc..)
because i loved being surprised! :D
the sensation! the scene can make me cry!
tak kisah la, anime ke movie ke drama, cartoons ke (or maybe hindustan ? -_-), as long as it is can surprised me!
*'surprised here doesn't meant about horror stories, or thriller, it can be everything. :)*

so, you going to think twice before asking me out for movie. (lebih2 lagi cerita melayu)
aku bukan nk blagak mat salleh, but please, think! think before you want to argue with me about malay movies. (aku lyn je crita jepun, cina, taiwan semua..)
okay, maybe ada movie melayu bgus, but is like 1 in a million. very rare. yang lain byk sgt merepek. no motif.
sorry kalau aku terkasar di sini, but this is my own views. so, just ignore kalau korang tak suka okay.
masing2 ada selera sndiri. betul tak ? sila terima dgn kritikan membina ya.

hmm, i think i want to major in literature.

just don't worry about me. i'm still okay.

okay, i hate it to agree that germany been kicked out by spain last night.
*seriously, they played like dum dums*

ergh, still i am looking forward for the final. hoho. hello netherland and spain then. : l

oral com tak lepas lagi. postpone to monday. sigh~ -_-

okay, my muet's result sucks.
band 3 ? oh my god. how supposed i want to tell people thatt i'm a bachelor of english student who received only 3 ?
stakat lulus jee ? sgt frust okay.
okay2, alhamdulillah aku passed. tp still aku tak puas hati.
*takpe, i'll repeat my muet when i'm entering gombak. yosh! insya-Allah amin.*

ouh, scholarship out!! yeay~ :D
*shopping.shopping*

ouh, and to someone, i don't know whether you are still reading my blog or not,
but i think i can't accept you anymore.
yes, maybe deep down there's a bit left, however, after what you've done to me, better you off with someone else. i think we are just not meant together, and i do want to focus on my studies more than thinking all this lovey dovey stuff. it's not the time for me yet. just let it be.
maybe kau kesal. tapi ini keputusan aku. aku dh muktamad. aku tak mungkin mengundur kembali.
so, feel happy to enjoy ur new life.

doki doki doki

serious aku tak baca pon apa-apa pasal the brute tadiii!
but alhamdulillah, i manage to sit !! :D
aku main hentam je jwb tadi. ahahaha.
(tp hanya tuhan yg tahu btapa tak tenteram nya aku di depan td)

*note to myself, don't ever neglect ur studies.*

hahahaha. okay lapar. -__-"
you see, this week is like my miskin week.
all my money already spent for the goody2 things. *positive things such as books etc etc..*

and i even have to buy rm5.90 pen just for my cct mid-term for the sake of my dear lecturer, sir Abbas.
see, positive kann ?
it's not like i spent on top-up for the sake some lovey dovey things or bought some branded-but-fake things.
hoho.

bile scholar nk masukk ? i'm in the state of poverty. D:

ouh, esok bfday seha. first2 nak wat prank tak jadi plak.
so hepy bfday seha ? :)
haha.

ouh, and esok aku kne present. doki doki.

kusut

*taking a five minute break after doing research for my oral com*

huuu~

finally!
all the agm thingy is over!
(but then, i have to do a proposal and attend this week training due to nomination thingy) -_-"

but alhamdulillah, i can focus on my studies, (and my life.)

you see, i did sacrifice a lot of things,
-hang out
-movies
-games
-sleep
-food (believe me, i did skip meals)
and even i don't have time to organise my things.

yeah, yeah, last week, a very3 serabut one.
sangat kusut okay.
dah la nk kne present, assignments, n byk homeworks!
itu aku tak kisah lg la, tu mmg kwajipan kita la kan ? *kata2 seorang plajar*
but but, problem luar plak dtg satu satu.
eh, boleh kasi aku take five skejap tak ? tak sempat aku bnafas tau. adehh!!

huu, alhamdulillah all in under control, and i managed to solve it all. alhamdulillah, terima kasih tuhan!
*_*

ouh yeah!, gemuk da selamat operation.
and sekarang dye suke golek2. lagi btambah2 manjanyaa! hahaha. (^_^)

err,



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i am really offended by your existence

okay, i'm still not get over him.

i know, it sounds desperate. i am trying.
people might see that i'm okay, but actually, sometimes, i am not okay.
setahun tu bukan sekejap.

mmg sumpah tipu kalau kau kata kau dh tak ade apa2, and kau ckp kau tak kisah pon kan ?

and the most offended part is that, he already having a new partner.
what a womanizer.

i am here like trying my best to busy myself with works and assignments to forget about him, meanwhile he already having a new one. what a loser.
urgh, siap main gigit2 lagi.

kau dulu beriya ckp dah serik la ape la, tp senang pulak la kan, mmg nmpak tak serik pon.
serious aku rase aku yg tertipu di sini.
mmg manis di mulut je, mmg ada hikmahnye, aku keraskn hati aku.
terima kasih tuhan. Alhamdulillah.

okay maybe itu hak kau la kan.
okay fine, suka hati kau la. sorry, just ignore my language just now.
tp bagus jugak kau buat mcm ni.
skurang2 nya aku ada reason kenapa aku nk benci kau. thanks ! haha.

but don't forget, this is my blog, i write what i like to write.
so, back off! loser.