you said i'm the only one you've been looking for,
but why you seek others?
you said you never treat other girls the way you treat me,
but why you're treating her the way you treated me?
you said you don't want me to be far away from you,
but why it seems you're far away from me?
i'm confused.
and how come you're acting so cool when we do have some issues?
you knew why i did this in the first place. you knew it from the start. i do have feelings. deep down i really miss all the time we've been together. it's not like i'm ditching you for someone else. there is no someone else in my dictionary. it's only you. always.
but then, when you did this to me. somehow my heart is broke into pieces and i don't know when this pieces will stick together back. it may take a while. yes, it hurts like hell.
i don't know about you, but i do looking forward 3 years from now. see ya soon.
aku rasa dah nak dekat 3 tahun kot tak balik perak. yes, lama dah. and today bak decided nak balik sat. katanya nak settlekan sikit hal. takkan aku nak duk umah kan? apa lagi chiow la pagipagi buta tadi.
anyssss! aku dh try pakai shawl mcm kau rituuu. *umi ckp aku mcm darth vader* -.-
oh yeah, bosan dlm kete tadi ._.
btolak dlm 7:30, ade jam sket jadi smpai la dlm pkul 11. bak pi settle hal dia jap. dalam 12:30 pi lunch dekat nasi vanggey dekat greentown.
*itu nasi satu pinggan, letak satu ayam, letak itu sikit kentang lpas tu lu campor semua kuah kari, meh papadom rm1.*
sedap okaay. aku ngan bak panggil ni nasi ganja. dia mcm nasi kandar je. :DD
lpas tu pi batu gajah. solat zohor. then bak pi settle hal lagi. then pusing2 and rest kejap dekat dgn station bas makan lengkong.
rinduu gila. X3
then aku baru teringat nak beli biskut kapal. yes, they still have it!!
bak ckp, ni biskut org duludulu. belah perak kalau ade kenduri tahlil selalunye derang dok bg biskut kapal ni cicah kopi ke apa takpon makan dgn bubur santan durian. tapi makan mcm tu je sedaap, mcm biskut marie but a bit crunchier. :D
then, btolak balik. aku tertidur jap. sbb mcm mngantuk. sekali time bak bhenti dekat tanjung malim bak beli pau.
aku rasa aku dgn anys je dok buat keje gila mcm ni. yela, usually people who tend to go on a plane will go to klia, bukan sajasaja datang makan angin mcm gaya datang kedai mamak lepak tengok bola seround dua.
aku pon tak ingat mcm mana boleh nak plan nak lepak dekat klia. tau2 je budak ni dah suh aku masak fish and chips ntok dia. picnic katanya.
(aku yang suggest mcm tu sbb dkat situ price dia sangat boleh cekik kau smpai terkeluar darah) HAHA
jadi lepas subuh aku terus prepare bekal. serious aku rasa mcm mak yang sedang mnyiapkan bekal anaknya sebelum ke sekolah. kiranya aku dah boleh jadi mak laaa ni? hikhik. ehem.
then dah siap semua chores aku terus siap2 semua. yela kang mengamok pulak umi tu, dah la keluar pepagi buta kena la settle keje dulu. dalam pukul 8:30 la aku naik erl. yes, seakan jodoh kami sama naik satu tren. haha. padahal dok text suh naik sesama XD
anys ape lagi, dah jerit2 dlm tren tu. rindu. sumpah tak tipu. haha, 4 bulan dh kot tak jumpa.
dah eksaited dlm tren, then dh smpai terus attack food garden yang berada di aras dua. mcm food court la, tu yang aku mcm tak malu dok keluarkan bekal tu hahaha.
fish and chips.
ni dah half way la makan.
lupa pulak nak ambik gamba air oren rm4.50. HAHA. tu baru air. don't ever think about the food's price. scary.
jadi seronok gossip, update semua. kitaorang round2 la. naik la aras 3. lepak dekat departure hall pulak.
dok usya orang nak pi umrah, honeymoon, nak berlepas entah ke mana2. hoho. dah tu jalan lagi. tengok kedai chocolate. dok usya harga. usya stewardess usya steward usya pilot. hahaha. takde keje.
beh tu dok main satu machine ni tau, machine ni boleh buat international call and go online. part online tu yang aku eksaited. HAHA. first2 try tak mau. pi lagi satu tak mau lagi. pi lagi satu plak telan duit aku pulaaak. cis. 50 sen seminit. tak boleh guna pulak tuu. anys dh dok sepak2 tak mau keluar -.- then aku try lagi, finally satu machine tu respond okay punya. jadi aku sempat on twitter je tadi. dpt buat 3 tweet je, itupon nak dekat rm1.50 la aku ltak. HAHA. kalau korang prasan tweet aku yang mcm jakun pagi td and via web, ha itu pakai machine tu la tu. lawak je.
then roundround lagi. beh tu jumpa kerusi urut ni, rm1 for 3 minutes. apa lagi aku try teros dgn anys. dh lama tak kena urut mcm best plak. hihi.
then kitaorang decide nak lepak ade satu tempat nama food paradise. naik je la. first2 ingat nak beli, tapi mcm kenyang lagi (lagipon mahal gila, satu muffin kecik dgn coffee/ tea dah rm8) jadi buat muka dunno dok lepak je la atas tu. borak2 sambil tengok arrival hall dekat bawah kitaorg je. tgok gelagat orang sambut org2 yang baru arrive dekat malaysia. and guess who just arrived today? david archuleta.
kalau korang perasan kat dlm video ni ada nampak mcm cafe dekat atas tu kan? ha, kat situ la kami dok lepak. first2 aku ingat entah sape2 je la david yang beriya derang tulis dekat sign tu kan.
"welcome to malaysia, david" yang tak tahan "noticed me david"
bila aku tengok derang dh beriya mnyanyi (practise dulu kot?) bagai. aku baru nampak banner david archuleta. aku dah mcm O.O
jadi kami tunggu je la smpai dia sampai. hahaha. usya dr atas la. comel je orangnya. :DDD
at food paradise with anys.
dah puas tgok live. blah pi mcD pulak. mau lunch. harga dia standard je. so betterla dr kau pi attack food garden tadi. hahaha. and i did buy a milka choc. serious susah nak jumpa choc tuuu! X3
habis lunch gerak balik. huuu. entah bila boleh lepak lagi?
penat aku ni tak hilang lagi sebenar-benarnya lah. haha.
start selasa hari tu aku keluar. first plan nak chill around sorang-sorang je. sekali si biyan tu ajak skali. aku join je la. then dapat pulak idea nak ikut dia balik kuala kubu baru. nak dekat setahun kot aku tak pi sana :D
so, off to klcc. tgok harry potter. lunch. solat zohor. solat asar. jalan. tgok transformer pulak. lpas tu baru balik.
(dari pagi smpai malam, wa ckp lu harga tiket parking rm25.60 bhai mmg jadi pengalaman org kaya la kejap -.-)
harry potter, like usual. superb. eventho ade part tak mcm buku. but oh well, it's too beautiful that i cried.
gelakla, aku tak kisah. coz i've been following hp from it's books and it's movies. and to me it's worth it.
biyan tido. -.- tak paham aku.
transformer? blurgh. kalau tak kerana si biyan yang meronta-ronta nak tengok sangat takde aku nak tengok. (bagi aku la.) last2 dia tido lagi. kuang asaaam taaak? -.-
dah settle semua, off to kkb. mama biyan yang drive :3
sampai2 aku dah mengantok. terus lena. hahaha.
esoknya. bangun2 subuh yan (aku dah malas nak taip biyan biyan. mcm panjang benor. haha) bawak pi pasar. beli mini murtabak beli soya beli taufufa. :D
beh tu dok beli rojak mamak. balik. makan sambil tgok sekali lagi. haha.
dah kemas2 tu rest kejap. petang tu btolak balik sepang. kali ni yan pulak follow aku balik XD
(yan masih lagi di bilik aku sedang aku taip post ini)
semalam, didie dtg ajak hangout sekali. so, dr rumah dia amek adik dia kat sekolah then pi ikot balik rumah dia kat bangi nak tumpang solat zohor. serious kucing dia bulaaat bulaat comel gilaa. teringat dekat gemok T.T
lpas tu didie bawak ke alamanda :D
makan steamboat lpas tu sushi lpas tu beli pretzels. -.-
then beli sket donashi untuk warga2 di rumah :D
dah habis round2. dide hanta balik. cik lie semua ada. kecoh tanya donashi tu untuk sapa si kecik2 tu. hahaha.
dah agk dah, mesti suke.
malam tu pulak uncle nami bawak nasi mandi. :DDDD
plus shawarma. yes makan je keje. hahahahahahahahhaha.
lassst sekali semalam tgok monte carlo lpas tu aku tido dulu. hahaha.
i just don't get guys (perempuan sekali kot) nowadays. they tend to say 'i love you' and 'i miss you' whenever they want and to whom they like. maybe not all guys (or girls) are like that *trying to be positive*. but, i really can't stand it when a guy that you barely knew saying 'i love you' out of the blue. come on, you're gonna make the girls all running away by doing that kind of attitude. girls don't buy that (eh, kejap ade ke yang suke mcm tuu?) . aku pulak dah naik allergic okay.
if you really like someone, please, there's plenty of way to approach. step by step.
bg salam dulu bro baru cakap.
kalau dah betulbetul suka smpai makan tak kenyang mandi tak basah tidur lena bagai sampai tgok cermin pon nampak muka dia je dah tak nampak muka sendiri, pi amik wudu' solat hajat mintak petunjuk. insya-Allah tuhan bg jalan. kalau dah buat tu semua and hati mmg kata dia. apa lagi jumpala parents masuk minang. bincang leklok. it'll turn out fine. kalau dah ada jodoh tak ke mana.
tak payah beriya nak cop dulula don't-mess-with-my-girl kindda attitude la. perempuan tu walau ke antartika sekalipun jumpa balik nnt kalau dah jodoh.
betul tak?
mmg kita kene ikhtiar, tapi agak-agakla kan. jangan la sampai kau dh layan mcm bini kau plak. sekali tak jadi amacam? tak frust ke? biasa-biasa sudah. jangan beriya. yes, usaha tangga kejayaan. tapi usaha di sini bukan la paksa kena in a relationship atau jangan layan org lain tu semua, usaha di sini ialah doa. kalau betul nakkan dia, doa, solat jangan tinggal. doa kan senjata kita? rajin bangun malam mintak dgn Allah. insya-Allah tuhan makbulkan. kalau tak dapat tu, maybe ada hikmah.
ini hanya pendapat aku. tak taulah korang macam mana?
orang semua sibuk pasal bersih 2.0 aku sibuk bersihkan kebun durian. HAHA
yep, skang ni musim durian. kejap2 gugur. kejap2 gugur. siapa yg gila durian tu suka la kot.
i'm not a big fan of durian, to be honest. sebab bila makan nnt aku akan pening. so yeah, i don't like the sensation feeling of headache.
bak dgn umi la bergasak makan durian. (tambah2 lagi nenek ade kebun sendiri. mmg la kan?)
smpai uncle rahmat dtg berkelah la nak makan durian. and and adik sepupu aku tu, bangun2 je durian. tghhari durian. nak tido pun durian.
ALL THE TIME HE WANTS TO EAT DURIAN OMGKAUTAKPENINGDARAHTINGGIKE WEHHH!
entahla aku mampu tengok je. -.-
itu baru pasal durian, belum kenduri lagi. sikit je lagi dh tergelincir tulang belakang ni tau tak. haha
kakak tak balik. biela tak balik. end up, aku, ain, aisyah dgn iehan je lapor diri. dgn jubah n selendang tu bercinta la aku basuh periuk belanga. yes, smpaikan henfon aku silentkan and letak dlm beg jauh2. baik takk baik takk? haha. lepas ni kenduri rumah aku pulak. dn tenaga pekerja hanya aku dn umi saje ._.v
*that explains why no pictures of kenduri*
and, aku baru tau sarah shahimah pon sudah selamat diijabkabulkan. make that 3 this week.
(bila turn aku niiiiiiiii?)
here are some pictures of my frens yg baru je mendirikan rumah tangga. selamat pengantin baru ye, and i'll pray for your happiness. insya-Allah. amin.
ain dan raihan
(sorry ain tak dpt datang! nenek aku buat kenduri. sorry family first. (: )
it's not like your looks last long. even the miss universe will get old and die later on #facts.
i'm chubby, so i'm understand the feeling of being downgraded by some people.
baik mcm mana pun kau dekat dia, dia still judge you from the looks. contohnya la.
and i really get irritated when some random guy/girl yg mmg tak kenal sgt cakap,
'bila nak kurus? nnt baru ramai peminat.'
dude, do i look desperate enough to get a secret admirers? seriously not interested. kang minat aku pasai lawa je. baik tak payah.
haha, aku paham. ada yang niat baik.
tapi entah la. mungkin aku offended? hm, mungkin. and being offended is never entertaining. unless you don't take it seriously? haha. i might say i'm okay. but actually i do take it seriously.
when someone commenting on my looks, it does effect my confident boost.
without my confident boost, i'm afraid to go out. i'll feel like everyone watching me and commenting the way i look. you get the picture?
it's kindda complicated. i'm happy with the way it is. but some people seems not happy with it.
i'm curious, am i an eyesore to you? why is it hard to face the fact that chubby people will always exist in this world? haha. okay itu mcm melampau. aku chubby, tak bermakna aku selekeh. betul tak?
aku mungkin bukan yang jenis make-up la kot. tu yg ramai tak minat kot?
bukannya apa, nak pi pasar je, tak payah la nak eye shadow sgt kan? ikan pun dh mati nak tgok kau. HAHA. plus, it's easier to take wudhu' to perform the prayer and save time. but that doesn't mean i'm selekeh. i wear clothes like normal people do. janji kemas and tutup aurat, DONE.
'perempuan, perlu la berhias' tak semestinya being chubby tak boleh berhias lansung. tgok mercedes dlm glee, chubby2 dia, cool kot attire dia. comel je. :D
true friends accept you the way you are, true love will grow old with you, and they never get tired to look at you.
